Well, I hardly know where to begin....I feel like the wind has been knocked out of me. We received an update from LSS (Lutheran Social Services), our adoption agency. It looks like LP, as well as the other casa privadas (Los Pisingos, the private orphanage where Lucy is from) are not accepting any paperwork for new referrals for children 3 and under. We knew that our orphanage application was sent down to Colombia in Oct 07 only to sit on the in-country coordinator's desk because of the slow down in referrals. Hey, at least it made it down there. I know of families that have paperwork waiting here in the States. Sigh.... When I think of all the wonderful, loving, truly amazing people that we've met once we made the decision to adopt, I'm overwhelmed. Anyway...we were prepared for a longer wait for a referral than with Miss Lucy (4 mos), more like late 2009 this time around.
This is such a weird feeling, to actually have to hope that there are birth families out there that are faced with the heart wrenching decision to place their precious babies for adoption so that Kurt and I can have a family. More importantly so that Lucy will know what it's like to have a sibling.
Colombia is doing great things for families and children. They are providing more support so that families can parent children. Adoption culture is changing in Colombia. Orphanages are making successful efforts to find Colombian families for children. So thank God there are less children needing adoptive placements because I couldn't bear it knowing that kids are languishing in orphanages when there are PLENTY of families waiting!
So I feel at a crossroads of sorts. Do we adopt out of birth order in the Colombia program? Do we stick it out and hope and pray and pray and hope that referrals will start moving again? Do we stop with Lucy?
But, I have to be honest and say that right now I can't fathom a child from any other place. A little piece of my heart is still in Colombia. I want Lucy to have a sibling that is Colombian too. Kurt and I have always said that if our kids can't look like us, they should look like each other. I want them to have remotely the same experience of how they came to be the light of our lives. My heart just aches right about now.
I don't know what to do...
PK
Rejoicing in the Inheritance
9 years ago
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YIKES! Just know when it comes to making your decision that you and KK will make the choice that is best for your family at that time. Have faith in the path set before you and trust yourselves to follow the guiding hand you trusted before to lead you to beautiful Lucy.
I know that sounds wordy, but I don't think anything can help you here but your faith. You will know (I'm sitting here signing "KNOW IN YOUR GUT"...if that helps you *smile*). And, whatever you choose will be wonderful and right for your family. All of us who love you will just be here to listen and support you on your journey. :)
Thinking of you - Beth
P.S. I got your message last night. Thanks! I'm actually waiting for a call from the Dr. today to see what will be my next step.
I agree with Beth. Just think on it for awhile and an answer will come to you.
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